I am a woman who was ually abused as a child; and i cheat on my husband now?

I was ually abused as a child of 5 yrs to about 13 yrs by 3 different babysitters (2 were sisters age 16-19) one was a guy16. at age 16 i was d also which my parents dont know about. my parents never really talked about the child abuse to me wrong or right, i never knew what to make of it i thought it was right cause they were the sitters. one day (after i talked to my mom casually as a child does) we went to their house one day and asked me to show them (my parents and her parents) what "game" we played and after i showed them i never went back. anyhow.... point is i am now 29 and very promiscuous, have been since teenager. i cant seem to get enough ually. i am married, love my hubby, but need to have extramarital . i crave the attention.i know it is bad but i wonder if its related!? i cant seem to stop, and i know if i was caught it would ruin my life, but even that hasnt stopped me. am i askin to be caught or what? help please!